Becoming Your Own Bestfriend: the guided journal
MY GUIDED JOURNAL IS RELEASED!!!!
my first two articles on substack were, “what 10 years of consistent journaling has taught me” and “how I practice being my own bestfriend” and as I sit here writing this today, that fact alone leaves me in a bit of awe. at the beautiful, full circle unfolding of it all.
as a young girl, i was plagued with trauma that had seeped its way into every corner of my being, and spilled out all over my life. i had no idea why, how, or where, all this darkness came from. all I knew was that it was simply too much to feel, and my goal became getting as far away from myself as humanly possible. I wanted to numb, run, hide. I wanted to pack this darkness into a padded box, never to be opened, never to be looked at.
my childhood was colored with themes of abuse from my father— a horrible, systematic, attempt to destroy innocence and purity. when i finally broke free of the darkness and the abuse, I was left with a lot of scars, and no where to go to heal them.
around 16 years old, I bravely decided to turn inward. it was an act of courage to become willing to look at that padded, locked box within the depths of my subconscious. and I had to decide that I loved myself and life enough to want to heal. I knew I had God with me, and I did every part of the healing for my inner child. for the little girl who went through all the pain, the precious child within me who deserved a much better life.
so, I began journaling, and I began practicing self love, and I began the process of becoming my own bestfriend. if someone made a guided journal about healing, I can promise you teenage me had a copy. through thoughtful questions and beautiful books, I began to meet my true self. naturally, I created practices of my own in my own personal journal, deepening my care towards myself. it was a place that I could turn to, something physical I could hold in my hands, a tangible item that I could use to spend time with myself, and reclaim what was stolen from me.
there is so much wisdom within you, all it takes is a courageous action of turning within. and it doesn’t matter if you are someone with trauma or not, because every single one of you is deserving of creating a relationship with yourself that feels safe, fulfilling, kind, and unconditionally loving. this world can be harsh, it is incredibly worth your time to be kind to yourself. my life absolutely transformed from these practices, and to be completely honest, it quite literally saved my life. I stopped living in darkness that was never mine to begin with, and my world began to become filled with healthy light, magic, softness, love, and joy.
from my heart to yours.
“Becoming Your Own Bestfriend: the guided journal” is NOW AVAILABLE!!!
over the past year, behind the scenes, I have been secretly and quietly pouring into this labor of love. it feels like a collection of everything I have learned in my journey of healing, and it felt like I was writing it for specific souls the entire time. there are pages of writing from me about what true self love is, how to move through your emotions, and how to build a relationship with yourself. there are so many beautiful pages of guided journaling, with pretty art, but deep lessons. pages you will feel so excited to fill in. it is a precious, pink, guided journal created from my heart to yours.
the entire purpose of it is for you to have something tangible and physical that you can hold in your hands. something analog. something you can rely on for your cozy self love nights, and your slow mindful mornings. I imagine you all lighting your candles, grabbing your cup of tea, a cozy blanket, with this book on your lap. meeting yourself. I envision your inner children healing, your heart beaming, and your mind renewing. you are so incredibly deserving of love, and it is an absolute honor to make an item that might help even just one person in being kinder to themselves. it is a gentle book, a soft invitation — but it is also incredibly deep. I pray that you have revelations and realizations that transform you from deep within.
I pray that throughout your journey in this journal, you begin to realize how deserving you are of love, and that slowly but surely — you become your own bestfriend.
I love you so much.
I am crying while I write this, because so much of my pain now feels incredibly worthwhile. I am unbelievably grateful that I could turn darkness and abuse into something as beautiful, pure, and light as this. thank you for being here, and thank you for giving me the opportunity to make something from my heart. I love you all so much.
